Gratify some and astonish the rest.

I am giving my intuition a full and free rein.

Maybe we live our lives according to some grand hidden default idea, I am not pulling anyone to delve into a deep philosophical discourse. I am no good either.

We have a lot of things to be thankful for. Everything we own, everything we have and are.

It is okay to make mistakes, to alienate (contemptuous) people and to make errors. Trust me, if you cared less, life would be easier. As long as you can think what is the best possible premise beneath every outcome then happiness sooner or later will be at your disposal.
Take two roads and see both views. Good/bad and decide intuitively.

This is me, letting my intuition take the lead. 

Acceptance

Let's just put things into perspective

I consider myself as a relatively insane and unstable being on certain occasions, people who know me well would acknowledge this. Nonetheless though, we exhaust all efforts in our power to contrive and avoid being a repulsive airhead but slowly it comes to realize that repugnant is indeed futile.

College teaches me a few love-hate lessons; being independent, self-reflections, casual hookups (lol stahp), challenging group projects, being extremely stewed the night before finals, doing inane things with the whole lot, friends and foes, colloquial bullshit, bitter indignation that threatens the very alliance of friendship (I don't usually use this term but let's just embrace it) and surprising acceptance.

But my issue is grounded in much deeper sphere, I reserve judgments for some people. I learned a prudent remark that's so widely understood yet frequently overlooked like "Apologize to people though it's not your fault (fuck it if it's your fault one way or another). Dissipate the ego" of which, should be the solution to any conflict resolution. To me, I already have a list of people-whom-I-don't-want-to-get-rid-of in my life, but I know people change over time as it elapses. One of the things we have no control over.

You see the essence of my first year couldn't yet be captured in a whole, for next term I'll be a sophomore. But in an entirely new context I have forged a new path.  We cannot foresee the future, we have no clue at all and we can only envision.

Two things that have great significance as a matter of human safety;
Us, humanity is a work of art to be cherished.
Value each other's principles.

This policy goes a long way.

Disposition

The art of verbal dispute can be portrayed through one's actions. Plus the viability to return home in triumph depends solely on your words, how sharp they actually are, how convincing your argument is. Negate the opposition front bench's intangible policy. Substantiate your claim with logical theories.

I've encountered an atheist before, from Singapore. I had to prove the existence of god on the basis of islamic philosophy I know about. (Allah for that matter, that's what I believe in) and after realizing how pathetic the answers were, and a look of slight bewilderment from him, he walked off. I managed to pull myself through an awkward situation.

As long as you stick to your stance, your point of view and your opinion
As long as you're not indecisive and ambivalent
Conquest will prevail.


Gunakan akal gunakan kepandaian. Hak bersuara atas dasar limitasi, jangan menghakimi manusia secara membabi buta sampai mati. Hakim menghakimi, peguam membela.

Jadi manusia berguna yang dijunjung bukan dilapah
Engkau bukan diperbuat untuk diratah
Ingat, makhluk bernafas bukan untuk disembah.

Discovering.

We live in a small labyrinth of thought.
We get confused, we get perplexed.

Much of my life has been devoted to trying to get across the point that we urgently need to make an elliptical course around one another, the urge to be an optimistic. To seek wisdom and acquire knowledge. To believe and have faith in self.

As I age, I begin to feel it's much more important to comprehend hearts and souls of human being--yes--the mere definition of humanity can't easily be uttered. Or how to describe the universe by my own imaginative power so that it'd seem more real than reality itself.

In retrospection, I wanted to be a lawyer or an arbitrator but I chose science instead. The outcomes were a series of chemical explosions, power plant, petroleum and shit which tore me apart. And you know, the ability to identify some profoundly significant otherness ie the nature, the earth and have pushed me to the limits of absurdity.

I seldomly note down my feelings you see, because I'm not good at it. Lacking of nourishment is one of my major drawbacks I presume. I WANT to discover myself, the circle of identity, to solve the riddle of my being and WHAT I really desire in life.

I think a worthwhile goal lays before me. But the infinitely most precious thing in existence is...



God


A firm doctrine.